What have you been putting off doing? Why?

I remember when I was in my 20s, I strictly followed deadlines, whether for routine chores, thesis presentations, or appointments. Especially for thesis presentations, I always wanted them ready long before the deadlines to double-check them.

However, with the passing years, I got more relaxed regarding the time-keeping fulfillment of obligations. But I generally never delay things that have to be done.

There is only one thing I put off: a theme that refers to a more personal matter. And that is to have a conversation with people from my very close environment about how I really feel and what burdens my soul. I have never done that.

Well, last year, I had a birth chart reading by a Vedic astrologer as I started to dive deeply into and explore astrology. According to my birth chart, he told me I gave the impression to the people around me to be independent, strong, and confident. (A former fellow student, when I met her some years after graduation, revealed and confirmed that she had precisely that impression of me during our studying time.)

But back to the astrologer’s report. Because I give that impression of being very confident, but at the same time, I have a deep hidden emotional side; he advised me not to show or tell the people around me how I feel because it would be impossible for them to deal with that. His exact words were: Don’t show your soft side in front of others; they won’t be able to understand you. They won’t understand your inner emotions. So, you must protect your inner emotions.

Under the line, this meaningful, crucial conversation I like to have, I must put it off for a long time. So, God will.